January 5th

I was up at 3 o'clock this morning penning this long message to Jenni. : It's 3:15 AM. I have given you almost $1200 this month and the first week isn't over yet. I have given you TWO weeks rent with the demand that you PAY.THE.RENT! Nothing else - just rent. There are 4 weeks in a month. Maybe 5 Mondays, but still only 4 weeks. I cannot buy you a car. Uber and Lyft only offer the possibility of money - they do not guarantee. Your begging is taking a toll on me. I'm telling you this has to end. We OWE more than we get in a year. We are old. It's not going to be paid off. Steven's stuff will not sell - and , even if it did, it wouldn't pay off the debt. I am not getting rest. I eat like I may not get to tomorrow. Beg on street corners, write articles for newspapers - god knows that's what you seem to be doing for me. Welfare, begging, unemployment, lawsuits, save money by not smoking or vaping, prostitution - hell, I don't care. Do something besides beg me. I know you're going to reply and make me feel bad about having written all of this until it's 3:30 in the morning, but I have to. You have support groups - use them. Use that time you aren't out looking for ways to get money and go to meetings. I'm angry and depressed. Please, figure out something. I do love you. I just cannot keep this up. I'm going to try to get back to sleep. 😾
She's seen it, but not replied. Trying to get worked up about it, I guess.
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